some where out there

ok i didn't finish talking the other day that is cuz i the bell had rung. i hate when that happens. it gets meh off gaurd. i thnk i will be right back i have to trun this paper in hold on.....ok i'm back miss meh... you know i like typeing in here it lets meh get all of my thoughts out with out kill some people that i would love to kill. i don't know what i am going to do when i get home. i hope i do something fun like. i don't really want to go home and sleep i think i might go out to the church and work out. wow i really don't want to do anything right now i want to just sit and stare. i have to do math after this waaaaa i don't want to i really really really need help on it. i don't get math..i never really have gotton math but you know i can lie. i can't wait i am going to ireland in jauaruy yay!!! i can't wait. i hope i have alot of fun and learn lots of new things and meet lots of new people you know what i have noticed i have noticed that i like to talk to people i like to meet new people wired people.. i just find that funny..people intrust meh..i can't wait to go to ireland. oh yeah what i was talking about befor i got cut off...josh spends all of his money on stupied crap...on food clothes,games and stupied stuff he doesn't need..how could i have been so dumb to think that he was ready to give all that up?? he isn't ready i don't think he will be ready for a long time... i think that maybe he wants a relationship but he doesn't want what comes with it..meaning he wants it but just doesn't want to waste time on it..i really like josh i think that we could have been something great but i don't know now i think maybe it's better to be friends.. and who knows maybe someday he will grow up but until than i am going to go on with my life as his friend..so anywho..i don't know what i am going to do today when i get home..like i said i may go to the church and work out that sounds really fun but i don't know..wow my stomach is making crazy noises like it is hungry which it shouldn't be cuz i ate something befor i left home. i really really really want to do something i am soo bored right now i don't think anybody gets how bored i am.......soooooooo...uh......um......yeah i like to think i am funny. i'm not but i like to think i am i get to meet this guy who is really funny. he is going to be my mall buddy he seems really funny and he isn't bad looking!!! hehe he said he wasn't looking for a relationship. which is fine i will just flirt with him and if i'm lucky he will do the same right back to meh...he likes ddr like meh i love ddr i am crazy with ddr i can kick ddr butt!!! yay butt kicking and shit ok will i think i am going to stop now cuz i the bell is about to ring so i am going to go bye bye for now ~melinda~